I’ve had the “Rebuilding My Body” header on the blog home for a couple of weeks now, but haven’t written anything yet. Been totally procrastinating on that one.
Why? Because I have a major mental block about sharing part of it openly. It’s not so much about being vulnerable and talking about the process, but more about being brutally honest about where I am at right now. I’ve always had this issue with saying a starting number. I’ll talk about diet, exercise, weekly pounds lost, habits–anything. But I just HATE writing down that number.
Logically, it makes no sense. You can see me and probably make a pretty good guess at what weight I am at. It’s not like I can hide it. I talk openly about weight struggles and weight loss with people I know. I recently got married and paraded around in a dress and posted 100’s of pictures that very obviously show my size.
Would anyone who loves me think any less of me based on a number? I don’t think so.
Yet, I keep playing these games in my head about how to get around it. Like, what if I only write the # of pounds lost every week and keep a grand total of progress only? Or, perhaps I can just talk about changes without a specific weight being given.
While my head goes back and forth, making excuses and bargains, I’m only cheating myself. The longer I try avoid it, the more I am putting off actually making progress. I want to do this right and I want to own it. So here we go…
First thing this morning I weighed 336.8 pounds. There it is. And that is the last time I’ll ever see that figure on the scale. Moving forward, it will be a daily focus to keep that number moving in the right direction.
I am not going to do a long post about the food I’ll eat and the exercise I’ll do, because the main point of this is just to put my starting number out there. So, I’ll just leave it with this three steps and fill in the blanks over the coming months as things get put into place:
- Weigh in every Tuesday morning (since today is Tuesday and Day #1) and post the results here on the blog.
- Write at least one “rebuilding my body” post on the blog each week
- Week One Simple Plan: Eat light, track food, guzzle water, start moving.
And with that, let the life-changing begin <3
