I’ve been sitting with the thoughts from my previous post for a day now.
After a chat with a good friend of mine who is dealing with similar blocks, I am feeling motivated to at least move forward and take some action towards getting comfortable with the whole truth being my public persona.
(and also have official decided to read the book Radical Honesty, which might enlighten me on the topic.)
I’ve decided as a first step, without going into depth on the different topics, I will just write up a list of the subjects that I am wanting to open up about:
- Journalling openly as a method to figure out the mental/emotional issues that surround my weight problem
- Writing about the sexual abuse that infiltrated my family and caused my life to turn upside down 5 years ago
- Being forthcoming about my inability to truly connect with people outside of close romantic relationships and the mother/daughter bond and how that causes me to not be able to maintain long-term friendships or other meaningful relationships with people that I care about
- An ongoing struggle with missing the younger, wilder version of me that felt most alive
- My minor challenges with the urge to use various substances
- Talking about some of the serious issues and experiences I had as a young adult, how I got through them, and how I feel about them today
- Discussing love and sex and how they evolve and change based upon current life situations
- My feelings about the tensions between people with different opinions on philosophy, politics, etc and how to deal with them
- The real reasons that stop me from taking action on goals I have for myself
- Personal life stories, including those that could potentially not be welcomed by other people involved in them. How to get over the fear of unveiling my story without feeling so vulnerable and fearing retribution.
I that that’s all I have for now, but I’m sure there are more that I’ll think of later.
It’s a start.