Learning to take pride in what I do

Here’s the thing- I am not ashamed of myself. I actually quite like myself. My problem is with getting over the shyness and anxiety about making my whole self public.

This blog is a first step in getting used to it. It’s time for me to put things down, share it with the world, and just own it without fear. You know, no boundaries.

You see, while this is an outlet for my personal growth experiences, there are so many other big, big things I want to do in my life. But, in order to really step into that role I need to learn to be comfortable with putting myself out there.

I’ll always be a happy introvert–that will never change. I am just a person who recharges through quiet time and loves solitude. However, I am also a person who loves people and always wants to help and do more. I’m someone who is confident that I have a lot I can teach the world.

I need to find the balance between embracing my true self personally and truly taking ownership of who “me” is.

Every post I write is a bit of challenge for me. Not the writing part, or the ideas (heck, I have a list of post ideas a mile long!). It’s hitting that “publish” button when I am done. Knowing that my words are out there for others to read and judge.

Deep down, I don’t care what people think because I am happy with who I am. I accept the good and the bad and am always striving to improve the things that need work.  Oddly, it’s not that there is some big secret about me that I am worried people with find out. Not at all.

Rather, I just get this feeling in the pit of my stomach when I show the real me. It’s funny, because the part that I hide is the part I am most proud of! The part of me that wants to speak to the world, make a difference in people’s lives–that’s what is dying to get out! Yet I struggle every step to just let go.

Right now, I am only publishing here and posting to Twitter. Want to know why? Because there aren’t that many people on Twitter who I talk to in real life.

I hate even writing this because I know it is so contradicting. But, it is the reality. I want to get to the point where everyone know exactly where my true passions lie and be able to just shout it from the rooftops!

I’ll get there soon. Just taking this step gets me closer.